As I cast bird seed across the snow
in the dark of five a.m.,
clouds in tendrils pass in front of the moon,
then vanish.
Full on bare moon.
Bird seed cast,
I stop,
and in moon’s light,
vanish.
belief in love,
that kind of love,
strong and enduring
weathering the indignity
of frozen,
lying close and tight,
to what was and wasn’t,
holding out in hope
for the exuberant gush
of letting go again,
without doubt or fear,
into pools of each other,
travels with our vintage camper
there is coffee now
and the purring ripple of the pellet stove
two flames in crackling unison
warming just one room.
the dark morning in the single digits
a coastal storm in tow
tomorrow will arrive with the sound of ice
against the windows
and I will wake
wild with radiant awe
winter storms on mornings so dark
stir in me
a giddy reverence
wishing only that the call of grown-up things
did not have to take my dark mornings away
that I could stay here
listening to ice on glass
watching two flames
out towards the farthest blue
that day
nothing mattered
nothing hurt
the farthest blue
stretching way beyond
anything that ever could